Millys Blog

Power of Duende

2012-01-10T21:08:00.001-08:00

Written 1/10/12

At a concert you listen to a singer.

She sways as the words flow from her body,

You sit in your chair wondering where her

Passion comes from, what is this thing

That makes you feel the words she is singing.

At a museum you walk through the halls and

Stop at a painting,

This one really caught your eye, there is great

Detail and feeling in this paining, this gives you an

Idea of what the painter was trying to paint, what he felt.

At a reading, a poet reads his poem aloud,

The metaphors roll through your head and paint

A picture, they give you a feeling, you wonder how this

Poet could write something that could make you

Feel so deeply, by his words.

Could it be a muse? An Angel?
It must be Duende,

For there is no greater power.

Christmas Untitled

2012-01-10T20:56:00.000-08:00

Written 1/9/2012

The fake needles scratch

the skin as you put the tree up.

The glitter ornaments shimmer

as you turn on the colored lights

for the first time this december.

Ornaments of different shapes and

sizes drape from the branches.

Presents start to stack under the

tree, different types of wrapping,

tags with many different names.

There's excitement and laughter as

you watch family open their gifts.

Ham with mashed potatoes, corn

and pumpkin pie fill the dinner

table, family talks while you eat,

When over and more time has

passed it's time to put t he past behind.

You pack up the ornaments, the

tinsel, the lights, and as the needles

scratch the skin one more time there

is a feeling of sadness.

For christmas time is gone,

But it will will come again next year.

All I Want To Do

2012-01-10T20:53:00.000-08:00

11/2010

All I Want To Do

Is be done with papers

and tests and take a

break from school,

Is be closer to being done

paying student loans back

Instead of not started,

Is be the kind of person

who once starts something

finishes it shortly after.

All I want to do is

love, and be loved,

and keep loving and

being loved =)

Surprise

2012-01-10T20:51:00.000-08:00

11/2010

Rain drops fall on my

head and my hair gets

damp with the smell

of rain around me.

I cover my head with

a newspaper but eventually

even that starts to soften

and more rain falls upon me.

It's not that I don't like

the rain, it's that it

surprises me with it's

awful timing of coming.

If the rain could maybe

give me a warning every

once and a while, maybe

I could have my umbrella.

Lonely

2012-01-10T20:48:00.000-08:00

11/2010

Alone in my room I

feel joy.

Alone except for the

feeling of lonliness.

I'm sure you know

what it's like.

Being alone. You've

been alone.

When I've left you and

forgotten your pages.

I apologize for leaving you,

I know what it's like,

To be alone, as you have.

Driving

2012-01-10T20:47:00.001-08:00

11/2010

White and small,

Cold and Wet,

falling and stopping.

I like to watch you from inside,

But leave me be,

I'm driving.

I'm not always safe when your around.

I'm scared of what will happen.

Happiness

2012-01-10T20:46:00.001-08:00

11/2010

Hello happiness, I've left you so far behind.

My mind is filled with need and wants and

I can't focus anymore.

Why does this world have to be money oriented.

Nothing can be done without it,

People are living on the streets because

They don't have it.

Why can't we pay with kindness and emotions?

I Can Feel You

2012-01-10T20:27:00.002-08:00

11/2010

Tonight I can feel your presence,

Almost like you never left and your

Still standing close, watching my every move.

I hear your whisper and I'm scared

Because I know it's not real and

I'll loose you once again.

But tonight, I'll keep you here,

I can feel your presence.

Nothing

2012-01-10T20:27:00.001-08:00

11/2010

My mind fils with blankness.

I'm blind to see all i knew before.

The words and the definitions I memorized.

This test time will be worthless without that.

Information somewhere in my mind,

The mind which is blank and full of nothing.

What

2012-01-10T20:15:00.001-08:00

10/2010

Soft whispers fill a classroom,

something is coming,

the smell of corndogs cooking in the cafeteria,

the sound of the band playing down the hall.

A bang outside the room,

Mr. Feller looks out the glass of the door,

the hall is empty,

‘What’s that’ asked by a high pitched voice.

Something sweet fills the room,

it becomes cloudy and we cannot

- see what’ going on anymore

it’s like blindness all around.

We’re all down on the floor crawling,

‘what do we do’ someone asked,

no answer from Mr.Feller-

fear fills the room from the students.

A few minutes pass.

Mr.Feller clears his throat,

the room clears, all faces are seen again,

No voices are heard,

except Mr. Fellers soft whisper ‘what was that?’

Music

2012-01-10T20:14:00.001-08:00

11/2010

Violins start us out, slow and sweet.

The vibrato gives chills to its listener.

The horns join in with a sweet melody,

They play together in harmony.

We catch an oboe in a solo,

The flutes and clarinets join in.

Suddenly we’re unaware of what’s going on

Around us, we’re sucked in.

A voice starts singing and it’s beautiful,

Charming and it takes us on a journey

Through a song we’ll want to stay with,

And never want that moment to end.

Fads

2012-01-10T20:12:00.000-08:00

11/2010

Tattoos are cool one day and

then they’re out the next. Seems

like everyone has one these days.

Piercings are in one day and

then they’re not the next, Seems like

everyone is getting their nose pierced these days.

Bellbottoms were cool in the 70’s

and then they went out of style.

Now it seems everyone’s got a pair.

Fads are in, then out, then back

again. What new fads will wee see next?

Beads

2012-01-10T20:11:00.001-08:00

11/2010

Beads, there are so many.

They make earrings and

Bracelets and necklaces

And sometimes even rings.

People use thread and

Wire and different metals

To make jewelry that

beads are used for.

But what else can beads do?

Spill all over, get lost in the carpet,

become a pain in the butt when

you can’t find them. But beads

will be beads, and they’re

sometimes nice to look at.

Help Me Teach

2012-01-10T19:59:00.002-08:00

11/3/2010

Help me teach her how to read

to teach her how to walk.

Help me teach him how to swim,

to teach him how to talk.

Help me teach them how to eat,

to use forks and spoons and such.

Help me teach them what they’ll

need to know, so when they’re

grown up and gone, they’ll be

taught all they’ll need, to live.

Warm Days

2012-01-10T19:59:00.001-08:00

11/2010

The leaves are gone,

The air begins to chill,

Suddenly I miss the warm days of summer.

I know snow will be falling soon

And I’ll be looking back on those

Days bathing in the sun on the beach.

Snow is pretty and it

Glimmers in the sun as it falls

But then I have to wear

A winter coat to keep me warm.

I don’t mind my winter coat.

But after Christmas has passed

I’ll be looking at the falling snow

out my window,

Wishing for those warm days once more.

Round and Round We Go

2012-01-10T19:56:00.000-08:00

11/2010

You’re stupid, you’re smart.

You silly ho, how could you do this?

I love you, I hate you.

Don’t leave me! Please stay!

Hands intertwined while lying together.

Yelling and Screaming.

Get out!

Kisses and fondling.

Things thrown in anger.

Watered flowers, chocolate candies.

Misunderstandings and wrong things said aloud.

Pictures and Cards hung on the walls.

Laughter and tears.

The beginning, the end.

And then it starts, again.

Frozen

2012-01-10T19:55:00.001-08:00

11/1/2010

Cold and white.

I can’t feel my fingers,

I can see my breath in the air.

I can’t feel my hands,

my nose is stuffed and I keep sniffling.

I can’t feel my arms,

My nose is red and wet from my breath.

I can’t feel my toes,

I’m moving my legs around frantically.

I can’t feel my legs,

I breathe quietly in the white darkness.

I’m numb. I’m numb.

All is black.

Sheila

2012-01-10T19:51:00.000-08:00

10/2010

Blood Red covered her finger nails.

They were as long as a nail you’d

use with a hammer, dangerous.

The way she walked around you thought

She’d killed someone.

Maybe she had.

She didn’t say much, she was one of those.

Just sat on the couch in isolation.

In her own little ward,

not paying attention to the world around her.

Imagine If

2012-01-10T19:50:00.001-08:00

10/2010

Imagine if you were able to fly.

As free as a bird, your wings taking

flight to anywhere you want to go.

You could feel the wind on your face,

clouds just above you, sun shinning.

Imagine if you had fins, like a fish

or a mermaid and you lived underwater.

You could eat seaweed or fish

and your hands wouldn’t prune after

being in for too long.

Imagine you were a flower

Just shedding your beaty to the world

hoping for rain when your thirsty and

soaking up the sun. What id you

could pick which one you were.

Imagine if you weren’t you,

and you could be who you wanted,

where you wanted, with not a care

in the world but that moment.

It’s fun to imagine, huh?

Rainbow

2012-01-10T19:49:00.000-08:00

10/2010

Redness fill my cheeks as I get embarrassed.

Odd elevator music plays as I ride to the 9^th floor.

Yellow teeth pass me on the street.

Grapes fill the fruit bowl in the kitchen.

Beethoven plays on a record in the other room.

Interesting quotes fill the newspaper.

Vintage skirts fill shop windows, once again.

Don’t Smile

2012-01-10T19:48:00.001-08:00

10/30/2010

Smiles, they’re everywhere.

Especially in Minnesota when

your walking down the street

and you see someone, they smile.

What’s up with that?

Then there’s the clerk at the grocery

store, and the lady at Walgreens

who seems to happy to be there.

And the guy at Perkins who greets you.

For once I’d like to see someone not

smiling while greeting at Walmart,

or the drive thru guy at McDonald’s

not to say ‘Have a nice day’.

Something different, something new.

But for now I smile back at all of them,

In my own world, sometimes because

I want to, but sometimes because I have to.

Heaven In A Hot Shower

2012-01-10T19:46:00.000-08:00

10/2010

Hot heaven cascades down your back,

the water causing dew on the mirror.

You don’t want to get out

because you know

it’s cold outside the shower.

It’s 10 pm and it’s been a long day.

It’s time to relax.

The soap on your loofah suds up,

You smell the aroma of your bodywash.

Shampoo soaks your hair clean,

getting out the dirt of the day.

After the shower a new adventure.

A new beginning.

Jean Claud

2012-01-10T19:45:00.000-08:00

10/2010

We called him Jean Claud.

He sat on the table near our window.

His green leaves with yellow spots

stared at us while we ate

and watched television.

We watered him, we loved him.

He still sits on our table

by the window. I’m used

to him there now. What would

I do if he just withered away.

Mmmmmm probably just buy a new one!

Untitled

2012-01-10T19:44:00.001-08:00

10/2010

Howdy Cowboy Tom yells upstairs.

Want to ride with me Tom moves through the house.

A fake horse and galloping.

Feet make noises on the wood floor.

Silence.

I get out of bed.

It’s a new day.

The Movies

2012-01-10T19:42:00.000-08:00

10/2010

Darkness, comfortable seats,

Popcorn and candy, a coke with ice,

big widescreen in front of us,

millions of pictures before our eyes,

screaming, laughing,crying-

People around us switch their crossed legs.

The salty taste of our buttered

Popcorn fills my mouth, I’m

feeling satisfied on our

decision to have this night out.

No where else I’d rather be

than here in the darkness.

Ask Me

2012-01-10T19:41:00.000-08:00

10/2010

Ask me why I cried when you first

Said you loved me,

Ask me why after six years we’re

still not married,

Ask me why I hate when your

mom texts me,

Or why after we watch a movie

I crave popcorn.

Ask me why I’ve stayed after all

this time,

Why I’m still here and not gone.

Ask me why I want you to ask me,

Ask me why.

Cleaning Time

2012-01-10T19:39:00.000-08:00

11/2010

The smell of pinesol fills the air

as the mop water splashes onto the floor. I relax as

The green scrubby sponge clears the crumbs

from the counters, removing the

Pink stain that was there for six

days straight, some jelly or juice

that one of my stupid roommates spilled.

I watch dust go into the air as the

sun shines in, the vacuum loud

and barely picking anything up.

I pick hairballs off the carpet

that have been left by any of the

four girls that live in the apartment.

I throw them into the already full

garbage. Great, another thing to do.

But once done all will be well,

and I can once more relax and

enjoy the cleanliness of my apartment.

Grandma

2012-01-10T19:34:00.000-08:00

10/17/11

I can still remember that day-

When I kissed her cold cheek

I was more scared than words can say,

Shaking, I felt myself getting weak.

This was my last chance to say goodbye

They pushed me near her bed

As I kissed her I tried not to cry,

I couldn't believe she was dead.

To this day the smell of old furniture

And spice reminds me of her,

Watching Wheel of fortune together, her nature-

I won't forget the fun we had together.

I loved her and I still do.

Grandma, I'll never forget you.

Time For Me

2012-01-10T17:58:00.000-08:00

9/18/10

When will it be my time,

to tell them my story?

When will they see my rhyme,

makes sense to my gore.

How can they judge me now, here on the street,

They make assumptions about my life.

I wish they could just read my mind,

Explanations are easier that way, sometimes

words just don’t come out right.

I could write them my response

can they read my writing?

Call me crazy, but I know

they just won’t get it now.

Who killed this body,

The gun shot through the leg,

Broken shoulder and ribs, blood on

The cold face, who killed me?

A Day In The Life

2012-01-10T17:57:00.001-08:00

10/2010

The garbage truck outside woke me at 5am.
I’ve been up since then,

lying here waiting for sleep to take

me back but I stay awake,

So cruel.

Work at 7am so I get dressed.

I put my wheat toast in the

Toaster. I push the toast down,

nothing happens. It’s

Fucking broken.

I go to work hungry I try

to stay awake while my boss

lectures me about posted notes.

Who cares, I say to myself,

He’s so boring.

I come home from work at

4pm. Nate greets me with a lick

on the hand. I missed you too boy.

The day is almost done and I’m

Happy.
I get into bed and move the covers

up over my hands. So warm and

quiet. My eyes start to close

and I can feel myself being pulled into

Sleep, finally.

Robber (Yet Again)

2012-01-10T17:54:00.000-08:00

10/2010

Freedom wasn’t busy that night.

She walked right in and right out.

She was two thousand dollars richer.

Gun point.

Hand it over.

Fresh wod of cash, two.

I love the smell of money.

She leaves.

Clerk calls 911, but what can they do

Freedom doesn’t have a camera.

She gets away.

She’s a smart woman, but

She doesn’t know that it’s going to

Catch up to her.

He's Alone

2012-01-10T17:53:00.000-08:00

10/26/2010

He turned and looked behind him.

He didn’t know why but he felt that

he wasn’t alone.

He walks along the curb of

5^th street and turns to open his car door.

He was alone, but he didn’t feel alone.

He starts his car and puts his

foot on the gas. What would

cause the car not to want

to move? He gets out.

In front of his tires there were

bricks. Bricks.

He removes the bricks and gets back

in the car. He is alone, but

he doesn’t feel alone.

He drives home and turns the

car off. He waits. He didn’t feel

alone.

He moves quickly to his front

door. what now?

His mind is freaking out as he puts

the key in to unlock the door,

He feels a hand, he turns,

He’s alone.

Homework

2012-01-10T17:49:00.000-08:00

9/2010

The black pen scratches words onto the empty paper. The page fills up with things you don’t understand, but you wish you could.

You’re tired and you want to give up, but your stuck. You have to finish it before you can turn it in, before it’s due.

How long will it take until you finish the task? Why must it be so time

consuming? Why must it take up so much of our social time?

The answer is unknown, but so clear. You’ll know someday.

[Last of her]

2012-01-10T17:43:00.000-08:00

This poem is an imitation of a poem by Lightsy Darst, the format doesn't come out quite how i wrote it here.

Written 9/2010

*

Look at her body

*

Lying in the grass by that old oak tree

*

She never had a chance

to see the world

lucky to be alive while she was

*

She knew a man

He knew her in ways no one else did

she wore her heart on her sleeve

when she was around him

but now she’s silent [nothing left].

*

I wish I could have known; I could have

saved her; If only she could have known.

*

One Endless Sky

2012-01-10T17:42:00.001-08:00

Written 9/2010

The rain falls from the endless sky of blue,

Rain freezes and becomes cold white snow,

Flakes fall from high above and stick like glue,

In daylight you can see its shiny glow.

The stars are twinkling in the dark night sky,

The massive moon dappled on the ground,

Sunrise lights the day and makes you cry,

The sun filled with beauty; one big mound,

Fluffy clouds fill the blue open space,

Wind moves leaves on the ground below,

Looks like rain is going to ruin this perfect place

The quiet nothingness gone; no longer mellow,

The sky is now filled with an endless pink,

Staring at it really makes one think.

Untitled

2012-01-10T17:40:00.000-08:00

Written 9/2010

She let me go right off the edge,

The wind blew sand right through my hair,

As if she pushed me off the ledge,

She left me with an evil stare.

Winter Follows Fall

2012-01-10T17:36:00.000-08:00

Written 9/2010

Wet drops fall from the sky

Landing on branches, and hitting

Sideways on the glass window upstairs.

I can hear the drip drip of the water

Falling from the gutters, leaves

Rustling in the yard, in the wind.

What will happen once the leaves

Have all fallen, the ground covered

In maroons and golds of fall.

Fallen branches and white specks

Falling from the cold air, the start

Of a new season, the start of winter coats

And heavy boots, the start of Winter.

The Professor in the Fall

2012-01-10T17:35:00.000-08:00

Written 9/7/10

The rake scrapes the cement and scoops

up the red and yellow leaves,

with a clank on the ground.

Wool pants seem like the perfect choice

because it’s windy, but when you go inside

the school building, you feel

the sweat bead on your skin.

The irritating black gnats that land

on your shirt while walking outside,

you hit your shirt, leaving a black smear.

Withered grapes in the dry fields,

that make for no good taste

in an alchoholic wine.

You turn the television on

And slump down onto the couch

To find

--the new nothingness of fall.

I Don't Know

2012-01-10T17:33:00.001-08:00

Written August 2010

I don't know how i should ask,

Or what i should act like,

Or where it should be.

I don't know how you'll be feeling,

Or if you'll be ready,

Or if you'll need time.

I don'r know if love is enough,

If this will last,

Or if it's meant to be.

I don't know if i should ask,

Maybe I won't, Maybe I will.

I don't know.

Winter Has Begun

2012-01-10T17:25:00.001-08:00

Written 9/2/2010

The first snowfall comes down upon the cold ground:

white flakes hitting the ground and making a thin white layer on the concrete.

Think of the smell of winter, the cinnamon in the hot apple cider,

the mittens on children running around building snowmen.

Imagine the sleigh rides you can take at the winter carnival,

the ice sculptures perfect and frozen as you walk by enjoying the art of them.

Even the rosy pink cheeks of people walking by gives you a smile on your face,

their heads poking out of their puffy coats and thick winter hats.

The cars stuck in the mounds of snow that cover them after a storm,

the tire tracks left in the parking lots after snow has fallen,

the sound that the snow makes as it crinkles under your boot

when your walking, the feeling of the flakes as they fall on your face

as you look at the sky, white clouds, frozen water, falling

right before your eyes.

Living Lilac

2012-01-10T17:10:00.000-08:00

Written 8/28/10:

The sun shines

on the light color purple

as the lilacs move with the wind.

What does it mean to be a lilac?

to be recognized by your color,

the vast purple, and the smell,

so familiar and yet so

beautiful and sweet.

To live peacefully,

only to be gawked at, taken away,

to grow and die, to come back

when the weather is nice,

to sleep away the winters.

The smell of sweetness,

flash our pretty purple color

to the Bees,

and then to disappear.

Good Times

2010-04-29T12:16:00.000-07:00

For Erin!

red light, green light
wah wah wah
Sugar plum, tasty cakes,
ha ha ha

MAMMA MIA LYRICS
texts sent to our phones
Oim thinking of summer
trunks full of signs and cones

Je t'aime mon BFF
et tu me manques beaucoup!

How I Love Thee, Let me count the ways

2010-04-28T17:33:00.000-07:00

The way you laugh at my sense of humour,
The way you smile when i say I Love You,
The way you wrap your arms around me,
The way your lips feel when they touch mine,

How I Love Thee, Let me count the ways,
The way your hand fits in mine,
The way you care about my needs,
The way you say you love me,
The way your always yourself with out trying.
How I Love Thee, Let me count the ways.

My Perfection

2010-04-28T17:29:00.000-07:00

Your eyes sparkle brighter than the stars in the sky,
Your smile is brighter than the sun at it's highest,
Your laugh is the sweetest music to my precious ears,
You are my perfection.

For You

2010-04-28T17:22:00.000-07:00

For my baby!

Love is blinding, I can't see.
I feel alone but your right next to me.

When I awake you're the first one i see,
I can't help but smile.

I don't understand these feelings,
Why can't I control myself?

Love is blinding but I'm starting to see,
I love you.

When I go to sleep at night,
You're the one i want in my arms.

I don't want to imagine my life without you,
Please stay with me, I love you.

I Don't Know You

2010-04-28T17:16:00.000-07:00

written 7/3/2005

I don't know you but i love you.

how, how can i love you,cherish you,
know how you feel but i've never met you.

I've never had a personal conversation with you,
I've never laughed with you, or cried with you.

I just don't get how you can love a person
so deeply when you don't know them, never have met them.

I would give anything to know you,
laugh with you,
have an actual conversation with you,

But life is a mystery I'll never know about
, and I guess though i don't know you,
I can love you anyways,

That's the way it is.

My Sunshine

2010-04-28T16:25:00.000-07:00

(Wrote this Sophomore year of highschool)

Before she came we weren't having fun,
Since we were waiting so long.
But then she came, and there she was,
wonderful.

With her we played and fun we had
to last the whole night through,
Throughout the time we played, it
was truly wonderful.

Despite the fact it was coming to an end, it would be remembered,
because she was there.
As though it's the greatest day ever,
I enjoyed it.

For me when I'm with her, she
brightens up my day, like the sun in the sky.
Against the winds will we played,
Behind us she stood.

But I knew she was there,
For that, it made me feel better,
it brightened up my day.

She will always be My Sunshine.

Love

2010-04-28T16:22:00.000-07:00

(From Highschool)

I know what it's like to be in love.

Though I'm young I do,
Sometimes I wish i didn't because it's so painful,

I wish that love could be like it is in the movies,
so perfect,
but it's not,

You get your heart broken,
You get hurt,
And then you regret loving.

I guess love is good.

Find the one who's right for you and love them,
and you'll be cool.

Friends

2010-04-28T16:17:00.000-07:00

(Highschool)
(this one is super weird)

All the friends i've ever known have been there in a way,
whether it was stealing,talkinging, lying, sulking, all of those are 'A-Okay',

I don't like being used but sometimes it can't be stopped,
I love the friends that all you do is hang out and talk.

The bestest friends I've ever known were always there for me,
I'll always be there for them too, I swear, and invite them to a tea!

Pain

2010-04-28T16:12:00.000-07:00

(from highschool):

Pain shoots through me
like a bullet from a gun,

I'm waiting desperately to get attention from someone,
the pain I feel is nothing too severe,

But you just wait and see
and listen to what you hear,

cries and whispers going on and off,

If only this pain stuff would go somewhere,
anywhere,
far away, away from me,

JUST STOP!

That Smile

2010-04-28T16:09:00.000-07:00

I found an old Poem notebook that i had in Highschool and i thought i'd post some of the poems here:

That Smile

Dear Smile on that face
What exactly do you embrace?
What kind of mood do you show,
Do you even exactly know?

What kind of thoughts are in your mind,
I'm thinking there are lots of kinds.

That smile shows how you must feel,
well i bet that's real.

Life

2008-12-05T21:56:00.000-08:00

My friend Cass gave me ten words: betrayal, trust, emotion, life, beauty, music, friends, confusion, conclusion, and love

With those words i made this poem for her:

Life is full of emotion,
I have my wonderful friends,
my love of music,
and of course the confusion of how things will turn out,
But there is so much love in my life, beauty all around me,
and though betrayal is just around the corner I have trust in those I love.
So I come to one conclusion, that I love life, and cant wait to see what can happen.

Something New

2008-10-25T21:39:00.001-07:00

I know that life is supposed to go on,
but i can't help but think of my past.

The tears well up in my eyes as the thoughts run through my mind,
what can i do about them, they seem to forever last.

the love i once felt in my heart,
the people it once belonged to left them so fast.

why does it still hurt me so,
i want the pain to go away but that old feeling to last.

I liked the love i felt in my heart, that feeling,
but i have to let it all go somehow leave it in my past.

So that i can go on,
and this years love can start, something to last.

When

2008-10-25T21:11:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i feel like i just want to cry
sometimes i wish that i would die,

i know how people feel but do i feel the same
sometimes i feel like everything i do is lame,

i sit and listen to the music around me
not looking at the images that surround me,

i dont even hear the people speaking in my ear
i just wish for that one special person to be near,

when this happens which may be a while
i will laugh and i will smile,

for then i will not have these feelings anymore
i can walk right out of it, right out the door.

Crazy things that happen

2008-04-20T20:48:00.000-07:00

Life can work in crazy ways at times.
You meet someone and don't know what kind of effect that they will have on your life.
After you talk to them for a bit it's like you can never get enough of it.
It's like each moment in the day that they are not around you are missing them.
It seems as if there is no one else that you would rather talk to and you wish that
there were more hours in the day to spend on talking to them.

Life has changed and you never knew how much until you met this person. You haven't felt this way in a long time and you like the feeling and you don't want it to go away.
You are happy and you finally have a reason to be.
You have developed a love for this person in your heart and you are not really sure how to tell them.
You are not sure how to express the way that you feel without them being freaked out or thinking that you may scare them away.
You will find a way and this person will know how you feel.
This person will tell you how they feel and secretly you are hoping it is the same way.
You will know someday and may the happiness grow.
And they will know.
You know.

Pour toi

2008-01-25T23:32:00.000-08:00

I wrote a poem in french 1/26/08 and i thought i'de share it. Things sound so Romantic in French *sighs*

This is for my special someone:

Pour toi

J’ai un secret.
Est-ce que tu écoutes ?
Mon secret est que je t’aime.
Je pense à toi beaucoup,
Je pense à les choses que tu as dit,
Je pense à ta visage, Je pense à votre sourire.
Tu es jolie. Tu es élégante. Tu es le miroir de perfection.
Merci pour tout. Pense à moi si tu as une chance.

Translation:

I have a secret.
Are you listening?
My secret is that i love you.
I think of you a lot,
I think of the things that you say,
I think about your face, I think about your smile.
You are beautiful, You are elegant, You are the mirror of Perfection.
Thank you for everything. Think of me if you get a chance.

Love This Friendship

2008-01-25T23:21:00.000-08:00

I wrote a song last week about the friendship between me and one of my friends. He is good at writing things for the piano and he decided that we should write a song together. Here are the lyrics:

When I look back on the past, I see good times we’ve had,

And I’m hoping there will be so many more.

I know that time has past , but our friendship always seemed to last, I know it’s crazy,

But what we have is..

Chorus: Friendship, I love this friendship, the past is the past, but what we have is so so strong, Friendship our loving friendship, I don’t care what others think, I love this friendship..

You’ve always been there for me when I needed you the most and I know I can always count on you.

I try to be a friend to love, but sometimes I seem to push or shove the love we share too many different ways,

I’m here and if you need a friend just call my name and I’ll be glad to help you when you’re feeling sad or anytime because of our

Chorus: Friendship, I love this friendship, the past is the past, but what we have is so so strong, Friendship our loving friendship, I don’t care what others think, I love this friendship.

So many things have happened over time, but I know we can work things out. I’m here for you, you’re here for me, a friend that will be there in need and thank you for your love, yes thank you for thiiiiiiis love.

I love OUR

Chorus: Friendship, I love this friendship, the past is the past, but what we have is so so strong, Friendship our loving friendship, I don’t care what others think, I love this friendship..

Friendship, the past is the past, but what we have is so so strong, Friendship our loving friendship, I don’t care what others think, Oh I love this friendship..

Tears

2008-01-25T22:08:00.002-08:00

Written 1/25/08

I can feel the teardrops on my cheeks,
the wetness from my eyes that flow down in streaks down my soft cheeks.

When im singing my favorite song, i feel the tears well up in my eyes ready to fall.

When i think of you, think of what my life has become i feel the tears in my eyes, tears of joy.

I love you and i hope that you know, when you see those tears they are asking you not to go.

I'm happy to have you here, these tears mean I love you.

Loving You

2008-01-25T22:08:00.001-08:00

Written 1/23/08

These Butterflies in my tummy, can you feel them too?

The tears in my eyes, can you see them?

The big smile on my face when i see you.

That crazy thing you do that makes me feel complete.

I have never felt like this, and i am so happy that i have found someone that brings it to me.

Words cannot describe my feelings, but im sure you know,

that from now on i am Loving You.

I Miss

2008-01-25T22:06:00.002-08:00

Written 1/13/08

I miss the sound of your voice and yet when the wind blows sometimes i swear i can hear it.

I miss your laughter from when i said something funny and sometimes if i think hard enough i can hear it in my head.

I miss your smile when you are happy and if i close my eyes i can still see it.

I miss our talks which were filled with so much happiness and so much fun,

I miss waking up and waiting for you, because now i know you may not be there.

I miss you in all the ways that i can imagine but in my heart you are still here, and i will be waiting.

Don't ever forget that.

Untitled

2008-01-25T22:06:00.001-08:00

Written 12/3/07

My head is pounding, I want this to end, I want it all to go away,
There is so much more to do and I’m sick of it,
Can you tell?

One more night, but I can make it, I think about you here with me,
It feels real almost as if you are really here with me, I can feel your presence.

This scares me but I know the truth, you are here.
Not next to me but in my heart. This feeling is so strong, I think I like it.

This may be something to live for, the feeling of being close with someone and to have someone to understand your feelings. Understand who you are and all of your flaws.

I am finally accepted. And I except who you are.
It has been like this the moment that I set my eye on you. The first time we spoke.
I remember I told you that I thought you were amazing and this still holds true.
You are too good to be true and that is why I love you.

So now the pounding in my head is gone, I am happy and feel good. Thanks Angel.

One Call Away

2008-01-25T22:04:00.000-08:00

Written 12/3/07

I pick up the phone and listen,
No one is there.
I want to hear your voice, but all I hear is the dial tone.

I can imagine you sitting there, thinking and having fun,
I want to be there too.

A thought comes to my mind and I grab the phone once more,
I put it on my ear and listen.
Still the dial tone.

I take it from my ear and bring it down, I dial a number.
After a few rings you answer, you say hello but I am so stunned by your voice that I’m stuck and can’t say anything.
After a moment I say hello. I wait for your response but all I get is a laugh,
It makes me smile and I feel sudden happiness inside me.

After all those moments of missing you and wishing that I was with you, I finally did realize that you are only one call away.
So the next time that i get the feeling, I’ll just pick up the phone and dial that number.

I’ll look forward to hearing your voice, the one that makes me most happy, the most beautiful of all and it’s yours.

I Want You

2008-01-25T22:03:00.000-08:00

Written 12/2/07

I want you.
here by my side
talking to me,
comforting me.

I want you.
loving me for the person i am now,
and not for the person that i used to be.

I want you.
because i think that you are wonderful,
and you are all i think about.

I want you.
you are my partner in crime,
you help me when im in need.

I want you.
your sweetness gives me butterflies,
my tummy feels funny.

I want you.
for who you are,
and not who you used to be.

I want you.
because you think im wonderful,
and you care about me.

I want you.
because you are you,
and i love you.

What is this?

2008-01-25T22:02:00.000-08:00

Written 12/ 1/07

What is this feeling?
Why is it when i think about you i feel like im flying,
i feel as if anything is possible.

Why is it when we talk i feel over joyed and excited,
why do i miss you when im still with you.

What is this feeling?
I'm not too sure but i know i like it,
i know i want it to never end,
i am glad that you are in my life,
i am glad that you choose me.

What is this feeling?
I hope it lasts.
It feels so damn good.

I Love You

2008-01-25T21:56:00.000-08:00

Written 12/1/07

Why is it that when i think about you i feel all warm inside,
When I look at you my heart skips a beat and it’s as if I can’t breathe,
How come when you’re gone I miss you so much,
When I’m sad I think about you and it makes me happy again,
When I talk to you, I never want to stop, it’s like I’m dreaming
and I never want the dream to end.

Your beauty is beyond words,
When I look at you I see an angel,
I see a light, one that makes my life brighter.
Now that I know you I cannot image living the rest of my life with you in it,
I can’t imagine not being able to talk to you and feel your joy.

I’m so thankful to have you in my life,
I hope that it stays that way; I hope that I can make you happy and make you laugh as you have done for me. I love you so much, never forget that.
Always remember the love, always the love, always the good times, always you.